whatever me that i am..

Kristina and I skyped tonight, I keep trying to get her to read my blog, but she's just too lazy. :) I'm so happy that we are able to stay connected when we're thousands of miles apart. I can't imagine how difficult this would have been without all of the technology and possibilities that are present today. But at the same time, I think I could have still left. My friends, my family mean the world to me back home. But I can't help but feel that there are so many expectations of me from people back home. I am expected to do things a certain way, dress a certain way, act a certain way, react a certain way, respond a certain way. There aren't any expectations here, at least not for the most part. There is still Facebook of course which connects me to those expectations back home. But this experience has given me the freedom to start anew. To be whatever me that I am. I thought coming this far would help me find out who I truly am, to find myself. The truth is, I don't think I was ever lost. I just never felt comfortable to let the true me shine. I'm not saying that I'm a facade, just that different people see different sides of the same me. But it is normal to have different sides, we all show and hide our strengths and weaknesses. We all are shy and outgoing, it's just the difference between the two that makes us an individual.